Flaws and all

 

I come to realize and think to myself, “ why do I only see flaws when I look at myself ? “ . I don’t know what’s gotten into me. I am beautiful. I can’t change how I look on the outside. It’s me. God created me this way, and because I am gods creation I am beautiful.

 

  And even though people tell me ALL THE TIME. I kinda cringe in disagreement. Especially if it’s someone I like, but I never show that! I will now convince myself. I am beautiful, inside(most importantly!) and outside!

  Flaws and all, I am beautiful. Say that to yourself. Beautifully flawed? heck yes.

  Self esteem issues much? Positivity is much needed. 

Working hard.. this year

I got this new blog thing synched with my laptop so it’s easier to blog. I will add blogging to my schedule. It’s sorta therapeutic for me.

 

  This year was the year of getting my stuff together. I accomplished more then some VERY OLD people have in their lifetime!

 

I’ve grown mentally, physically. and emotionally. I have goals. I have reached many goals. I’m satisfied with what I’ve accomplished so far but ambitious enough to want more!  I have a lot to say, so get comfortable bloggy.

 

  I’ve gotten all these certifications for personal training so far. I want more to expand my knowledge. It’s good money for helping people. I can say I truly love it. So far Arthritis exercise, kettlebell, Personal Training, USA swim Coach.

 

I love where I work because I can truly flourish. My co-workers are amazing. It’s fun. and I look forward to more education in this field in the beginning of next year. I think I want to get into group fitness. not sure though. Oh and just FYI, I don’t train people at the facility i work at. I just coach swimming which is very fun. 

So yesterday was probably the busiest day for me. I had swimming practice after class, the I got homecandvwad eating my dinner and I was singing song in my head. Then I almost forgot, I had to be back at school in a half hour or so. So I swallowed my dinner and managed to get dressed on time.

So yesterday was probably the busiest day for me. I had swimming
practice after class, the I got homecandvwad eating my dinner and I
was singing song in my head. Then I almost forgot, I had to be back at
school in a half hour or so. So I swallowed my dinner and managed to
get dressed on time.

Our choir concert was great! Select choir rocked! The other little
(concert)choirs weren't really good but it's ok.

it was our Christmas show.
All of this happened last night.

In them a bat flew in the auditorium. I'm not even kidding.

So yesterday was probably the busiest day for me. I had swimming practice after class, the I got homecandvwad eating my dinner and I was singing song in my head. Then I almost forgot, I had to be back at school in a half hour or so. So I swallowed my dinner and managed to get dressed on time.

So yesterday was probably the busiest day for me. I had swimming
practice after class, the I got homecandvwad eating my dinner and I
was singing song in my head. Then I almost forgot, I had to be back at
school in a half hour or so. So I swallowed my dinner and managed to
get dressed on time.

Our choir concert was great! Select choir rocked! The other little
(concert)choirs weren't really good but it's ok.

it was our Christmas show.
All of this happened last night.

In them a bat flew in the auditorium. I'm not even kidding.

Today was amazing...

Today was amazing. I had a lot of fun. Best of all I got to laugh and just lay back and not care about anything for once. I went shopping all day and I didn't buy anything but food. I know I'm fattt. haha.

I laughed and meant it for the first time in months maybe. Like I was laughing so hard I cried. lonnnnggg story.

Some weird things also happened. Me and my friend caught some ugly girls talking about me or pointing me out. But we ignored them we didn't want to fight. Then some random girl tried to sneakily take a picture of me, but she forgot to turn her flash off so it flashed right in my face, and it was bright. I don't know if she was really trying to take a picture of me. She was with a group of friends. I could care less so I kept walking. Her lenses were pointing and me and my friend so we kinda guessed. Maybe it was an accident idk.

Something inappropriate happened at the toy store, while we were shopping for a homeless family. My friend took a family to buy presents for Christmas for. So we're looking at toys and this what seemed to be girl at first kept bending down in front of us as if he/she was reaching down for something and he/she's but crack was like showing wayyyyyy too much. Like it was right THERE, there was no way you couldn't see it. and it happened twice and I laughed so hard I had to leave the store so I wouldn't offend this person. I don't have a problem with transgendered people, it was just the nasty ewww but crack. so grosss.

the day continued on, we shopped for 8 hours. My friend bought a lot. Now I'm home writing a blog and I'm going to clean.

For the first time

For the first time I can say I enjoy a sport. I enjoy swimming. It's really awesome I'm obsessed with it.

Today was my first meet, and I didn't win at all but I didn't loose by much. I was right there with them. Being my first meet ever I feel accomplished. I was told I beat the other person in one race thingy but the clock didn't say so, it did that to a lot of people.

I will swim harder next meet. Best part is that I get to go to sleep and say to myself, " you did it!" and I didn't even win but I accomplished my goal, other people did worse. I will practice very hard.

-jose

ahhhhh

ahh, finnally I'm going to get some rest. It's 10:30 ishh pm. I had a long day. Swimming practice <3, and I auditioned for the school musical, let's see how that turns out.

Tommorrow is my first swim meet so I BETTER get to sleep now so that i won't be sleepy. I went to bed late last night so I can't tonight. It'll build up.