What Happens when you neglect a blog

What happens when you neglect a blog? You’re life flashes past you, and you have nothing to look back on because you forgot to write about it.

Things have been well and somewhat terrible. I never knew how you can meet someone and make them the love of your life in 6 months, but it’s possible.

I know he’s the love of my life.

 

This love is so fucking painful. I don’t know what to do. I’m almost scared of him. He makes me shiver, I’m afraid of him. But I don’t want to show. He’s so intimidating. He has a bizarre creature in him that could tear me apart into shreds.

He has no heart sometimes, and I am so naïve that I don’t know what I’ve done. I don’t care what I’ve done to make him this way, all I know is I want him to be happy. If being happy is being without me, let that be. I cannot see this pain any longer. This will be the death of me… this relationship, that I don’t know what’s happening to it but all I want is for it to work, I don’t think that’s mutual maybe? is it? who knows. Who knows. What knows. I don’t know what’s going on, but god please, make this better.