FAKE Victims

Interesting Rant,
It just so happens that people that often play the victim in life are OFTEN the selfish bullies that strive to desensitize the souls of the weaker, less advantaged human souls. It like they get stronger from make others feel/be weaker.
New Goal, keep these people away! steer clear of failure by only wishing people the best, and doing the best I can for myself. Never putting myself in a position where someone else holds the key to my dreams. ONLY I can hold the key to my dreams.

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY PLUS SPECIAL MESSAGE!!

DEAR BLOG,
Today is my birthday. When I was born I was premature so my chances of living were slim. When I was five I never thought I'd make it to 10. when I was 10 I couldn't even imagine 21. Today I'm 23!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I made it! Through every struggle, every tear, all the pain and suffering. Most importantly the laughter, the smiles, the great times. I cannot be more blessed with the greatest mother in the world. Still trying to get my dad to understand me, that's a work in hopeful progress... lol

Live is BEAUTIFUL. No matter how bad you have it try and find and focus on what's good. You're alive, you're breathing, you're in the best place you can put yourself and your it's only YOUR decisions that can move you further to success.

I'm no where near my dreams.... but atleast I'm following them and tonight I will wish fo rthem to come true once again. Following them with such passion and drive right now I will not let anyone get in the way of them.

Life is what you make it. Don't waste your time pleasing people that don't deserve your attention. Stick with good energy. Put it out there and it'll come back.

SPECIAL MESSAGE: Today Marks one entire month of sobriety for me. Staying focused. No more drinking, smoking reefer. It's not that I had a problem. It's just my days are so much more productive when I'm not hungover even 1 day of the week. My reality isn't that hard to face I'm doing what I love I'm following my dreams ALL BY MYSELF.

Following your dreams, being who you manifest yourself to be

Sometimes our human can be distracted by the people we surround ourself by. Success for me is being the person I've manifested myself to be. I don't need to tell anyone who that is. I just need to show them.


For example, if you grew up wishing, manifesting yourself to be a scientist. Wake up everyday and say to yourself " I'm a fucking scientist! ". You don't need a piece of paper to validate who you are. Regardless of what you have to do to get to that place that'll officiate you being a scientist.


A lot of times I see people in life are unfocused, bounce around and never really achieve anything. They just like to brag about what they do and who they are because they need the validation from others, which they can't give to themselves.


Today I look into the mirror and I validate myself. I am _____ ( It's for me to know and you to find out, if you care eneough about me you'll pay attention to my life journey and you'll see ). A long with validating myself I'm also taking responsibility in what has to be done to become the greatest version of who I've validated myself to be. I will work as much as I have to, I will sleep as much as I need to, and when I can't I won't complain.

Best foot forward. It's never to late to accomplish goals you've set for yourself in the past. If you don't do it who else will. They're YOUR goals.
!!!BAM!!!

- Aftin

Str8 people making inappropriate comments to gay people.

Yes... It still happens.
Whether it be your friends, family, colleagues, coworkers, it's WRONG!

Do I make snarky comments to make str8 people feel like they shouldn't fit in? No. It's been often, that I've come across these kind of situations lately as I've been socializing with more str8 people visiting my hometown. Like people hesitant to share utensils with a gay person because in their fucked up world every gay person is dirty, complaining that you take too long to get ready ( as if it's any of their business how long it takes for you to get comfortable with yourself to walk out the door), people looking at you weird because you have a gait you've been working on since you were 13(JK) mainly people do these things to shrink you.



It's almost as if they want us to shrink us to fit into their perfect picture of what a man should be. Men and women of all "types" should be able to get along and coexist without wanting to shrink one another. Why would you want someone to feel trapped in a body that's unwanted. This is what we need to protect our youth from, FEELING TRAPPED and committing suicide.

Everyone should put their foot down, be who you want to be no matter how others TRY to make you feel. I say try because they're only succeeding if you allow yourself to shrink to their tom foolery version of who you should be. You're in charge ultimately in how you feel and if those people around you don't like you. Continue to take a low blow at you or your sexuality and the characteristics it comes with. Get rid of those people. Don't give them the blessing of having you in their life. Make yourself disappear from them. If it's meant for you to be in each others life, the universe will show that person they're wrong for making you feel that way and they'll come and apologize. If not the universe will take care of that person. Like a boomerang the energy you put out into the universe will come back to you and hit you in the face. Be peaceful. Be happy. Live you life as you feel. You should never have to decide how gay you're being or how gay you look. Look as gay as you want, be as gay as you feel.
-Aftin

Str8 people making rude comments about gay people.

I'm the black wolf

I’m a black wolf
I stand in darkness
Not everyone can see me.

A heart not of stone
a howl not a bite
Afraid of a fight
I’m the black wolf.

I live with no alpha
I thrive from my sight
A flash in the darkness
I can see the light.

The black wolf dreams of fitting into the pack
But there is not pack that’ll bark for the black wolf
The black wolf stands alone every day and every night.
He is all he has at the end of his strong fight.

- Aftin